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Postcards Home and Learning Opportunities

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It’s been so much fun walking around the city of Rome, exploring the streets, and stumbling across different beautiful monuments, cathedrals, and ancient artifacts. My friends and I have been taking to the town every day since we’ve gotten here, and all agreed to take as much as we can out of this study abroad. Planning day trips and finding new places around Rome, we have enjoyed our time here so far. We tried Japanese pancakes the other day while walking around the Vatican and made ‘vlogs’ along the way. Even when it was raining, we were out on those cobblestone streets enjoying the peacefulness that covered Rome.

However, comparing to last semester in London, I’ve already noticed some differences about my experience and myself. Rome is a far more sociable city than London, and I’ve noticed that in London I felt it being more okay to being alone. I felt as though London gives company to those who like solo time and gives more opportunities for solo dates, where Rome is far more social, and I felt more of a need to be around my friends and have less of a desire to go on solo dates- even the thought of it was a little more daunting. Maybe part of it is the fact that there is a huge language barrier now. Maybe I felt more comfortable and confident in London because I knew how to get around and knew everyone around me spoke English. However, I will try and work on my language skills and put my 2 years of Italian to use!

While on one of our walks through the city, my new flat mate and friend, Nicole, decided she wanted to send a postcard home. So, while she picked out a postcard, Abby found a cafe. Nicole quickly picked out a postcard, wrote a note, and sent it away. However, after a questioning from Abby, Nicole quickly learned that she needed to put a stamp on her postcard! She ran back to the stand, talked to the owner again, and quickly got the card back, to which she put a stamp on it and now it was truly on its way back home.

There have been quite a few learning opportunities here in Rome. From figuring out how to talk to locals, to ordering cappuccinos, figuring out where to get my nails done, and learning that even if its 60 degrees outside the Italians will still be in full winter coats.

The latter learning opportunity presented itself to me the other day. While I dress for the weather, Italians dress for the season. It was a sunny, 60-degree day outside, so I decided to embrace it and wear a t-shirt and jeans. While I thought it was fine, the Italians apparently did not. While walking around the streets, I got a few stares and a comment about it being cold. While it was a little uncomfortable being so stared at for just a simple t-shirt when it was warm out, I realized that’s what comes with living in a new country and learning what the locals do, how they dress, where they eat, and everything in between. Nonetheless, I’ll still be wearing my t-shirts because frankly, 60 degrees is quite warm when the sun is out…

While last week was filled with learning opportunities, this week will be filled with embracing those changes. This weekend, my flat mates and I will take on our first trip of the semester; Prague and Budapest! I’m excited to travel to these new places and explore the new countries I will be in.

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The Dichotomy of New Experiences: Pre-Departure Thoughts of a First-Gen Student

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T–Minus 50 Days Until Take Off 

I keep waiting to wake up. For someone to tell me that this was only a dream, and that I am not actually leaving for Japan in 50 days. If I was a character in a children’s television show, I would yell out to the world, “Somebody pinch me!” and hope that, by some miraculous force, someone’s hand would pinch mine. 

And yet, here I am: not a children’s television character, but a human, wide awake and experiencing this in real time.

I exist in a constant state of disbelief that this is even happening to me. Last week, my friends and I officially booked our flights to Japan. This morning, I officially accepted my Gilman Scholarship Award and am in the process of finalizing everything. It finally set in that this is actually real.

I am actually going to Japan! My first ever international trip! I’m giddy just at the thought that these words are my reality, that I am doing so in this lifetime, and it isn’t just my imagination.

I still have so much to do in preparation for my departure, but I am so excited to have this new experience with my friends. We have already started planning different places we want to see and visit and have even started looking at the coffee shops and cafés near our campus. I started a wish list for things I need, along with a list of everyone I want to buy souvenirs for and what to buy them. I am planning solo-travel days and downloading different travel itineraries from travel influencers and locals on what things to do when in Japan. 

I created a widget on my phone that counts down how many days I have left until we leave and I constantly find myself checking in on it, hoping the days continuously get lower and lower until it’s eventually the day of take off and I am stepping on that plane platform. But alas, the days stay 24 hours, and the weeks stay 7 days. 

As a first-generation student, this is something that I never expected to have ever been able to do, especially for no cost. Simply being the first one in my family for many generations to receive a higher education is an utmost blessing in and of itself but having the opportunity to study abroad is the opportunity of a lifetime. I carry the dreams of my ancestors along with me in my shadow, and I bring everything they taught me throughout my actions in my life. It is because of them that I am even in college getting the ability to even have this opportunity. 

It is for these reasons, though, despite my excitement, that I am also incredibly anxious anticipating what awaits me. 

The unknown is both welcoming and extremely terrifying. 

Trying to know what to expect and how to plan accordingly as a first-generation student has been a challenge I knew would come, but was unexpectedly underprepared for. How does one apply for a visa? Or navigate customs? How do I know what forms I need and how to get them if my mom also has no idea? 

Going this far away from home for the first time is also going to be a major adjustment that I am nervous for. I moved away from home for college, but there is a difference between moving from the green peaks of the Appalachians to the snowy peaks of the Rockies, and moving across oceans to be in the home place of the beautiful Mount Fuji, yet almost 7,000 miles away from the home I know. 

From mountain peak to mountain peak, navigating the cultural differences is one thing, but I am scared that my naivety will be to my detriment while abroad. This feeling of uncertainty is definitely a strong one, and the imposter syndrome that follows along with it has been becoming increasingly difficult to manage. Everyone else seems to have it all figured out, and yet here I am, unsure and ignorant to the realities and struggles. 

What if I can’t make it abroad? What if everything I planned for ends up falling short because I was underprepared? 

Yet, as I sit and listen to the stories of those around me, I have learned that no one ever has it truly figured out. Sure, it may take me a bit longer to figure out how things work, but, in the end, this will be a new experience for almost everyone. The fear and the excitement are mutually exclusive, and they work in tandem. I have learned that anxiety is normal, and it is okay to feel it! 

First-generation students like myself deserve the opportunity to excel and enter gates that were previously closed to us before. As I savor my final 50 days in Denver, I will use my time to appreciate the privilege of experience and change without denying myself the permission to feel the very real worry that I am feeling. They are not antitheses of one another, but rather welcomed companions on my journey.