You don’t have to dig for the good stuff

Watching my classmates from DU post pictures from airplane windows on their way back to the United States this past weekend has been bittersweet. On the one hand, I’m jealous. I’d give almost anything to not be glued to this computer cubicle in the ACG library working on final papers. But on the other hand, it’s starting to land that in less than a week, my study abroad experience will be over. Not to worry, though! I’ve got some final-but-not-final thoughts from this semester that I think are worth sharing.

The program I am here with, ISA by WorldStrides, offered us the chance to complete “micro-credentials” while studying abroad. You can work on up to two of these extra courses during your time abroad to earn badges and real-world experience to add to your resumes (and experience of being human) along with your classes. I decided to do the “Choose Earth” micro-credential while here in Athens because I was taking two sustainability courses this semester towards my minor! For our final ‘assignment’, we had to complete some sort of environmental challenge.

During the second half of our program here, I began to recycle my apartment’s bottles, cans, cardboard, and plastic containers. I know that at first, it might seem silly to prioritize recycling plastic bottles so much in the grand scheme of things, but my apartment this semester has been me…and eleven other people. I have only lived with one other person the rest of my life, whether that be in my home or my college dorm, and I was not aware of how much waste 12 people can create in a day. Twelve people can make a lot of waste in a week, especially when those people all come from different homes and do not all believe in consuming things at the same speed. Because of this, I decided to make a serious effort to get our apartment to start recycling.

As easy as this task sounds, it became incredibly clear that it was going to be difficult to complete it for two reasons: my unnecessary stake in it and my roommate’s lack of it. If you’re one of my roommates reading this, Hi! I love living with you and keep reading so you don’t hate me! I made this recycling effort so intense for myself that I felt like I was somehow failing the challenge even though I was in charge of creating the rules. There were days when I was cleaning up in the kitchen when I was digging through the garbage just to make sure we had recycled everything we could. I think this was prompted by the fact that I was also taking two environmental justice + climate change classes this semester, so I constantly felt like global warming was completely my fault as an individual and that I singlehandedly needed to stop it. (Spoiler alert: that’s not how being an environmental steward works.) My roommates also didn’t all remember to do it and some of them don’t recycle at home, so they aren’t used to it. It was a lot of give and take, but slowly we started to recycle.

The biggest thing I learned from creating this challenge was that it’s okay if things don’t go perfectly as long as they are ‘going.’ I felt like this in many other aspects of my life abroad, too. I didn’t think I was taking advantage of traveling in Europe enough while I was here, but I’m bringing home souvenirs from four countries I had never been to before this fall. I was worried my friends from DU who were abroad elsewhere had forgotten about me since we didn’t talk much this semester, and then we had an impromptu FaceTime call last week discussing our excitement to be back in Denver soon. Instead of looking at the big picture, I was getting stuck in the minute details of my life, which was obscuring all the good parts.

It’s easy to get stuck in things like this when we’re passionate about something, especially when we’re in a new country, with new people, and trying to find our footing. This is a reminder to anyone, especially as the calendar year comes to an end, that it’s more important to just do something if it’s that or nothing. Being abroad has taught me that changes won’t always happen seamlessly, but there’s no need to go digging in the trashcan to try and speed up the process.

Its okay to relax at home

While I’ve done A LOT in these past few weeks/months, I also feel like I haven’t done anything. It’s a weird in between where I feel like I always have to always be doing something, and where I have to remind myself it’s okay to relax. I see people going on trips every weekend, and it makes me wonder if I’m doing everything I can.

I occasionally get this feeling, that I feel like I have to be doing something, traveling somewhere, or seeing something. After class, before class, on my off days, and weekends. I have to remind myself that part of enjoying studying abroad, and life, is taking time for yourself and relaxing, even if that’s in bed, at home, watching a movie. I have to remind myself it’s okay to not always be walking around the city. While that’s definitely important, and exciting, you don’t have to do it every day. After a while, I’ve seen and done so much in London, I don’t know what to do on my off days. Today is one of those days.

Today, I woke up late and started my day slow. I had to remind myself that it’s okay, to not have a plan, and to not always go out into the city. I decided to retake some notes and remind myself what I have to do for my finals. I still feel a void, where a voice in the back of my mind is saying to do something, even though I don’t know what to do. “You’re in London and studying abroad! go out and do something” it says. But I am doing something here at home. I’m talking with my roommates, making food, doing schoolwork, and relaxing, which are all very important to life and studying abroad as well.

I feel a common consensus is, if you’re not going out and traveling all the time, you’re not taking advantage of this opportunity. But that’s wrong. You can enjoy your time abroad, relaxing and enjoying you time, just as much as you can enjoy time abroad, traveling. It’s okay to stay home once in a while, and not worry about what you’re going to fill your day with.

I sometimes forget just how much stuff I’ve done. I feel as though I haven’t done enough, but then I reflect and rethink what I’ve done, and it’s a lot! I’ve seen all the great tourist attractions like Buckingham palace, Big Ben, and the Tower of London. I’ve traveled to the countryside and enjoyed a quiet day. I’ve spent time at parks, museums, and cafes, as well as hung out with friends. I’ve even traveled to Scotland and France! I have to remind myself that I’ve done so much, even if it doesn’t feel like it, or there’s still so much to do. While I still have a bucket list of things I want to visit to complete, it’s okay to take this day for myself.

So, I’m here to remind you, that it’s okay to take a relaxing day at home, cozying up in bed, watching a good movie. It’s okay to not have plans and focus on schoolwork. While it’s amazing to go out and enjoy whichever city you’re abroad in, there’s a healthy balance of the two. Today, I will focus on my schoolwork, and myself, and remind myself that I have great plans tomorrow and the rest of the week, that a slow day like today is needed.

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