So, What’s Really Been Going on?

After getting back from spring break, I had a whole second half of a semester ahead of me before going home. I had this weird feeling of burnout and lack of energy that never fully recovered. It was hard to come back to university life after the experience we had the week prior. I never knew how much I would cling to the memories from that trip and how grateful I was to have experienced it when I did. Around this time, my body started to demand that I slow down, and abroad became a lot harder.  

For context, I was really sick before and after spring break and it’s been a constant struggle since I’ve gotten here. This was something I never thought about or that would get in the way of my abroad experience, but I have learned a lot from it and how to listen to my body. There is such a pressure to be so go go go while on exchange, which is fun for the time being. However, at a certain point, I was just tired and traveling was far down on the priority list. In the beginning, I brushed off the sickness and ignored how I felt because I was so focused on saying yes to every plan that was thrown at me. I am a natural introvert, but I pushed it socially and over time I got so drained without having my much-needed downtime. I was on antibiotics during spring break, which allowed me to feel better momentarily and road trip through New Zealand. Right when I got back, I got sick again, but far worse. I knew this was my sign to take it easy.  

Physical health can really take a toll, especially when studying abroad and wanting to always be out doing fun things. I know that I have a weaker immune system overall but didn’t realize how bad everything would hit me while in another country. When I first got here in July, I had what felt like the common cold, but it lasted over a month, and I felt like I was getting worse rather than better. I was in the student health center on campus on and off just trying to figure out what was going on. While the on-campus doctors are good, I was constantly being told that this was normal for someone studying abroad. Although exposure to so many new illnesses can be normal when away, it was hard to navigate. I learned that it usually takes about 6 months for your body to adapt fully to the viruses in a new country- the amount of time that I was spending in New Zealand. For people with weaker immune systems, like myself, I feel like I was catching every new sickness that I was exposed to.

It got to the point of me being worried because I was only getting worse. This started to affect me mentally. I had to say no to multiple trips with my friends to prioritize my health. I feel like it can be normalized at the age of being in college to feel run down all the time and just push through and go on to the next adventure. It got to the point of me being so weak that I physically didn’t want to go anywhere because I knew I wouldn’t have a good time and it wasn’t worth getting sicker at that point. Another thing is that antibiotics and medication are not as commonly prescribed in New Zealand. It was really difficult to navigate health struggles in another country while on my own and I started to feel tired of having to constantly advocate for myself. It took me getting far worse to even be prescribed antibiotics. In the United States, we often go to a doctor with the expectation that they will just make us better or prescribe medication. I had to get used to the fact that not every country is the same, but I was frustrated because I knew I needed the medication.

If there is anything I can recommend- it is to know and understand the healthcare system and insurance before you leave for study abroad. I grazed over the study abroad handbook, not feeling like I would really need the information. The next thing I knew, I was in another country and trying to learn about how to find a doctor, insurance, and how much I would have to pay on top of feeling quite bad physically. The international SOS people through the University of Denver are actually really helpful and I wish that I reached out to them sooner. They explain the doctor and medical facilities in your area and also how the insurance and payment work.  

In New Zealand, everything shuts down on the weekend. I had seen the school doctor during the week but got progressively way sicker over the weekend. I called international SOS and I decided that the urgent doctor was the best route. The urgent doctor is the only doctor in Dunedin that you do not have to wait over 2 weeks to see. The issue is, that they charge $200 upfront that you can later file an insurance claim for. This is a lot different than the US, and it is a lot to have to pay but I decided it was worth it because of the situation and just wanting to get better. I was skipping a lot of classes and struggling to keep up with schoolwork as well. All I wanted to do was lay in bed and honestly wished I could just be at home in California.

I was beginning to feel quite isolated from my friends and the loneliness was kicking in. I was falling behind in school, not seeing friends as much, and was starting to feel very on the outside socially. I have made awesome friends in New Zealand, which I am extremely grateful for. However, everyone was just in a different mindset than I was which was totally understandable. I wanted them to have the best possible experience and they wanted me to feel better. I knew I needed to take it easy, but it started to get old spending most days and nights on my own. Although hard, it taught me how to trust myself and how I am feeling.

The urgent doctor prescribed more antibiotics, which was good, and also recommended blood tests to check if there was anything else going on that was causing the sickness. I’m assuming that I had mono or something else, but they charge extra for that test and it just wasn’t worth doing when the treatment would be the same. On top of the medications, I’d bought and the doctor’s appointment, the blood test was another $200 ish. The medical expenses were starting to add up and it was slightly confusing how to submit the insurance claims.

Here’s what I learned: Student Safe insurance through the University of Otago takes a really long time to get back but they will help. I decided to go the route of talking to international SOS and using the insurance we have through the University of Denver called Star Companies. International SOS helps to provide a service of looking at insurance and payment options as well as giving medical advice to assess if going to a doctor is necessary. It was nice to reach out to them and have their support while I was away. They kept it all organized for me and sent step-by-step emails of what I needed to do next in terms of insurance and that was helpful.

After the second round of antibiotics, I finally am feeling a lot better. I am still trying to take it easy and just listen to my body- sticking to routines that work for me such as working out and eating healthy. While some things are unavoidable, I am doing a lot more now to prioritize my health and prevent illnesses rather than staying in the constant cycle. I am now in the final stretch of my time abroad, which means the stress of studying for finals is creeping in. In New Zealand, they do a month for finals so that they are spread out. Currently feeling slightly overwhelmed with balancing what I have to do for school, and what I want to do in terms of travel for the rest of my time here. The extra time for finals is nice and very different than DU, but it needs to be played strategically. It is easy to fall into the trap of not using the time to study and feeling like I have more free time without classes. There is an opportunity for more travel on weeks that do not need to be spent studying, but time management is necessary.

Many unexpected challenges arose this semester, and sometimes it is necessary for school to take second priority. Things really do get better and being abroad has shifted my mentality around how I deal with setbacks. Some moments have not been as glamorous as others, but it makes me appreciate the good even more now. I do want to finish strong with school and the rest of my time here. There is still so much to look forward to such as my family visiting me in New Zealand after finals and possibly going to Australia as well. Overall, there have definitely been ups and downs, but I am learning to stay present and take every situation as it comes.

Spring Break Round 2?

Spring break was one of the highlights of my time not only in New Zealand but in my life as a whole. It probably sounds like an exaggeration, but it was a pivotal moment for me because of how much I learned about myself and what I’m capable of. I was pushed far outside of my comfort zone, which led to a new level of peace, contentment, and overall gratitude for life. It was one of those trips that was so good to the point of being hard to explain in words. I’ll try my best to paint the picture of what went down on this trip.

In full transparency, I was struggling to keep up with school while also balancing traveling. The thing is, I want to do well in my classes while also not letting it consume me to the level that it may at home. It’s been difficult for me to find that balance while abroad- forcing me to work on time management if I want to be able to do anything fun.

I was really looking forward to utilizing the week to just get out and not worry about schoolwork. I took small weekend trips which were fun but not enough time to hit multiple spots and fully be in exploring mode. I just had to get through the stress of the week in terms of midterms and preparing for the trip. There was so much to plan in terms of making sure I had gear essentials because we would be camping and backpacking different areas of the South Island. Even though I love the outdoors, I do have my limits with nature. My comfort zone is laying at the beach and being able to surf and get tan, or snowboarding. Especially since being in Colorado, I’ve always wanted to do more in terms of hiking and backpacking and this was my opportunity.

The plan was to camp and also do some backpacking and then a couple Airbnb’s to spread it out. While I’ve camped, I’ve never backpacked. I’ve always wanted to, but it was never the right situation and I had no idea what I needed to bring. Luckily, my friend Eva, who I live with and was also going on the trip was very helpful. She made me a list of what I needed and made sure I felt prepared for the long journey we were embarking on. While I didn’t have the experience and knew it would probably be comical, I could control having the right gear at the very least.

Although out of my comfort zone, this is the type of thing I came to New Zealand for. This is what I wanted. I will be forever grateful for a friend like her who turned my dreams into a reality. Things ended up falling into place- another friend even offered all of her backpacking gear because she was going to be in beach mode in Australia and did not need it. I graciously accepted and in exchange gave all the bathing suits I could offer for her trip, and we swapped lives for a week.

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Me and Eva waiting to be picked up

Sooner than I knew, midterms were done, and it was the most relieving feeling. I was so mentally exhausted that I went home, took a nap, and procrastinated packing. I had everything I needed but hadn’t officially put it in a bag and thought through the details. I ended up waking up early and scrambling to get my stuff together- which was way more than I actually ended up needing. Finally, our car was packed to the brim, we got gas and left Dunedin. I finally could breathe and get excited for what was to come. I popped on my shades and made sure that everyone was on the same page with music. I was with my friends Timo- from Germany, Holly- from England, Vasco- from Portugal, and Eva who is also from the US. Deciding on music was the first bump in the road but slowly the Europeans came to love Noah Kahan and the Lumineers as I introduced them to what a road trip is all about.

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Heading to the first backpacking spot

We were set up for success because Eva is an awesome planner. She took the time to research the best backpacking spots at the right skill level for most of us being beginners and also cool towns/beaches. On top of this, the group was just awesome, and we traveled really well together despite the mix of various cultures. Two of them, specifically, are some of my closest friends that I’ve made here, and I got to witness a romance develop between them. Spoiler it’s now weeks later and they are dating. It was just wholesome, and I felt so lucky to be with people with whom I have genuine love even though we’ve all just met. It didn’t matter who was the fastest hiker (well there was friendly competition going on), but everyone took breaks and was encouraging. Even if we were tired someone was cracking a joke at all times. Eva went into mom mode- she put on all of our pack covers when it started pouring and cheffed up even in the wilderness. I was just soaking in all the knowledge and trying to make myself as useful. This ranged from filtering water, doing dishes, cooking, etc. while purely outdoors. I had the realization of how much nature does provide as we were more than taken care of.

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Morning breakfast and coffee on the campsite in Picton

While so much happened, I’ll share some highlights that stand out to me. There are specific moments from the trip that just thinking about them takes me back to how I felt. The first one was when we finally made it to the hut at the top of Mount Fyffe, which is in Kaikoura. We had driven a few hours to get here from where we had spent the night in Christchurch. I was happy the drive was long because I started to feel the anticipation in the car driving to the trailhead. It was about 3 p.m. and the sun was going to start setting around 6:00, so we needed to hurry a bit when we got out of the car. We parked and put on all our gear and made sure that everything was packed. We had stopped at a grocery store for dinner/breakfast stuff because we were able to cook in the hut at the top. This was nice because we didn’t need to bring tents especially because there would be snow and the hut had a fireplace.

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Hut from the inside

Once we were all ready it was time to actually walk up this mountain. I got so out of breath within the first 5-10 minutes. The track was three hours of a straight-up path including having the weight of a large backpack to carry. In the first hour or so I was definitely slowing everyone down and kept taking breaks. In my defense, I had been really sick so my lungs were already working at a slower pace than usual. I remember thinking to myself, “Why do people do this this is actually not enjoyable.” Eva, who I mentioned and who was the most experienced, brought gummy bears as an incentive to keep the pace. It was actually the best tactic because she would bride us all with getting one at the top of various steeper parts. She said her dad used to use the method on her when she was a kid but it sure did work on 4 of us most being in our 20s.

After the first hour or so, it did start to get easier as my body was adjusting. We played various category games to pass the time. Doing things like this makes you appreciate the simple things such as a snack and water break sitting down with the most beautiful view and the satisfaction of making it as far as we had. It was becoming more enjoyable as I was focused on what was around me rather than how my body felt. My pace became a bit steadier, and I was finding a better rhythm.

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The final stretch of the hike

When we finally made it up, the view was insane. There was snow where the hut was, but it was also overlooking the ocean. I have never seen snow and ocean in the same view as that before, it was just wild. I remember sitting on a bench with my friend at the top and just taking it all in. One of my favorite views ever is a town’s lights while the sun is setting. It was just so beautiful, and I felt so grateful that I could be there looking at that view. Nothing else mattered besides that moment and I was just thinking about life and how much has changed for the good to lead me to where I was- on the top of a mountain in New Zealand (wow).

I was deep in my thoughts and then realized I was freezing and should probably head inside and set up my bed stuff/help with dinner. The hut situation is interesting because it is kind of a gamble whether people will be there or not. This was a smaller hut and there were a few people there on top of our group of five. Another couple showed up as well, and so it got really crammed. I shared a twin bed with my friend, Holly. There was just no space, so it was not the best sleep. However, we did share my book and read together before bed which was kind of cute for us despite how uncomfortable the sleeping situation was.

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Keeping busy in the hut

The next Location was camping a couple hours North on a beach called Robin Hood- located in Picton. This was one of my favorite spots because it was more up my alley and a nice break after the backpacking. I was shocked that we could find this good of a campsite for free and right on the beach with no one else there. There was a small stream in a little forest area close by that we used to filter water. Eva brought water filtering bags that we filled up with stream water to turn it into drinkable water. It is a time-consuming process but was good to learn in terms of not wasting water. After this was done, the sun was setting, and we decided to take a swim. The water was cold, but we hadn’t showered so it felt really nice to jump in the water. After I applied a million layers to stay warm while we cooked some chili for dinner. For some reason, food just tastes so much better when it’s cooked outside, and somehow, we ate really well on this trip. After dinner, I vividly remember us lying on the beach and staring at the stars for a couple hours. It was night but the moon lit everything up and it was so clear and easy to admire. We were having the best conversations about the Earth and just how the stars, planets, and everything operates. Any other topic of conversation would be unacceptable at that moment.

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Roasting Marshmallows
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Polar plunge

We ended up forcing ourselves to go to bed and wash dishes knowing that we had to be up decently early in the morning to drive to Marlborough Sounds (somewhere I was really excited for). Around this point of the trip, I was adapting to the lifestyle of living out of a car and sleeping in a tent. This morning was so serene when we woke up. We lay in the warm, morning sun for a bit while eating breakfast and drinking coffee. I was searching for the peace within myself to leave this place and go to the next location despite how much I was enjoying it.

From Picton, we headed to Marlborough Sounds. By this point, we were at the top right corner of the South Island and far from home. This was one of those places that looked exactly like the pictures if not better in person. Once we went in, the goal was to find a cool picnic spot to eat lunch and enjoy the view. The water was so blue and beautiful that when we pulled over at a beach all of us decided that it was necessary to jump in. The sounds are connected to the Pacific Ocean, but they are sunken river valleys. Because of this, the water is completely calm almost like a lake, so it is super relaxing. I could physically feel it getting warmer as we headed up the coast and closer to the North Island.

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World’s best picnic spot

The next core memory was watching the sunrise on a dock at the campsite in Marlborough Sounds. Something about this spot reminded me of a summer camp that I went to growing up called Hume Lake. I felt a sense of familiarity in terms of the joy I had at that camp. In both circumstances, I was watching the sunrise reflect off the water while sitting on a dock with people which made me genuinely happy. I saw a bigger picture of life. It was a full circle moment that put things into perspective as I felt so insignificant to what was around me. Everything else around me went still and I almost felt the world pause.

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Sunrise in Marlborough Sounds

The final key location was backpacking to Awapoto hut in Abel Tasman National Park, which is pretty much as far north as you can go on the South Island. One of my favorite parts of New Zealand is how diverse the vegetation is throughout the islands. I was in the snow, beach, forest, and now jungle. I loved this backpacking route even though it was a bit hard. It was more of an unpaved path with parts that we needed to climb up and then go back down, so it was not just straight up the whole time. The bummer for me was I started to get bad knee pain, especially when going downhill. All the hiking while carrying a heavy pack was getting hard on my body because it was new to me. Luckily, one of my friends ended up helping and taking my pack which was the only way I was able to get up. We lay in the grass on the side of the trail when we made it out of the jungle section and sat for lunch. It overlooked the ocean and it made me forget that all I was eating was bread and turkey.  

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Green!

This hut was a lot nicer than before and we had it all to ourselves, which was luxurious at this point. We took some pictures of the view and hung out until sunset. Also, I might add, that we did not have service, so we were either reading, hanging all together, playing cards, etc. That part of the trip was nice- just being able to be unplugged from phones besides much-needed pictures. We got super lucky because this was the night of the blue moon, and we were up on this mountain in Abel Tasman with the whole sky lit up. Even after the sunset, everything was illuminated, and the moon was reflecting off the water. This is a sight that will forever be on repeat in my mind. It was so nice that we put one of the mattresses outside on the porch just so we could lay there for as long as we wanted and be comfortable.

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Blue Moon in Abel Tasman

We eventually went to sleep, and I was cozy in my sleeping bag thinking about how we were heading home the next day. I was ready to be back in my bed, but I was going to miss being able to travel while being so carefree. We made it back a day later in the evening after stopping at some hot springs and camping one more night. We all still talk about this trip almost every day and just how grateful we are to have experienced so many beautiful places together while making core memories that will remain with us always. We laughed when we got home as someone asked about how our spring break was and the only response I had was good because I didn’t know how to explain it. This was me trying.