Experiencing Burnout Abroad

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As my time abroad has been nearing its end, I have been struggling with lots of conflicting emotions. I have reached the time in my semester when I am struggling with burnout, and living in another country is no exception to this. With the stress of school, the struggle to keep up with the language difference, and continual travel, my cup is very full. This may sound like I am complaining, but really I am extremely grateful.

I have had such an amazing experience and I am struggling with the thought of letting go of the place I have learned to call home the past few months. I am trying to express as much gratitude as possible to my host mother and come to terms with not seeing her every day. Thinking of all of the friends I have made here and when next I will see them, due to the fact we all live on opposite sides of the United States, is difficult as well. Waving and smiling a few extra times to the shop owners that have begin to have a place in my heart. All of these new feelings that are arising due to my experience coming to an end soon.

All of these thoughts are accompanied by the immense joy I feel to have studied here to begin with. The gratefulness I have for being able to study abroad and learn a new language and culture. The fear of not fitting in. The longing for home. The excitement of a new culture. The joy of finding another family halfway across the world. The fear of leaving them but the need to. All of this partnered with exams and deadlines has quickly become exhausting.

Yet at the same time I wouldn’t have it any other way. This experience has been absolutely amazing and I am so happy I was able to experience the culture of France and a few other cultures along the way. There have been so many amazing people and events I have been able to experience. Studying abroad can be very exhausting, a fact I am feeling right now, but it is also amazing. I see the good and the bad in so many different places and I have a new appreciation for people living abroad permanently.

I am trying to walk home slower so I can appreciate my neighborhood. Pay more attention to the details or the locals I recognize but don’t fully know. Pushing myself to take more risks and grow even more.

Internship at Czech Childrens Hospice

As a first-generation student, every experience I’ve had in upper education has been different from what I thought would be my life after high school. Freshman year at DU, I would walk around full of gratitude over the fact that I made it out of my hometown and did something more. When I returned after the harder parts of cancer, it was unreal to be back on campus. Having my own apartment in Denver feels like such a major accomplishment. Now, being in Brno, those feelings of gratefulness and pride are especially beaming. 

I wasn’t necessarily taught about internships and what they do for you. In high school, I associated internships with opportunities mostly for students whose parents had a connection to some large company that would set them up with a job once they graduate. I wasn’t taught that some people get new internships every year or semester to expand their resume. I didn’t even consider doing one until this past year when I noticed everyone around me wasn’t working a part-time job anymore, but interning before they graduate. Doing an internship while studying abroad seems like it would add more stress to an experience you plan on enjoying, but it doesn’t. Most of my stress came before I started working- not being aware of hours, expectations, and nerves over joining a work environment in a language I had never heard out loud.

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Posing in front of the office sign of Dum Pro Julii in Brno, Czech Republic. This NGO is currently building the first hospice building for children in the Czech Republic, set to open end of summer 2024.

I am privileged to be interning for communications and fundraising at Dům pro Julii, the first children’s hospice in the Czech Republic. As a cancer survivor, NGOs like Dům pro Julii have quickly taken precedence in my heart. Serious illness and death are sensitive topics for many people, it’s scary, traumatic, depressing, and hurtful. Especially when children are the ones being focused on. The first couple of weeks my supervisors were focused on teaching me about the importance of respite care and how their NGO functions, fundraises, and provides support for families under their care. The end of life deserves to be treated with compassion, and hospice doesn’t mean immediate death, there is still life to be loved and cared for after diagnosis of terminal illness. 

The organization’s motto is “At to Maji Lehci” which translates to “let them have it easier.” This means to try and help make the lives of parents and children easier while dealing with one of life’s toughest challenges. Parents and families of children with serious illnesses are heavily affected by the situation and take up the role of being a 24/7 caretaker nursing their child. It’s exhausting being stuck in that situation all day, every day, so care nurses and hospice workers help relieve that exhaustion by taking over for a few hours a day or week. 

I think working my first internship here in Brno is such a major step towards my professional goals. I want to be able to work for and advocate for patients across cultures and starting in a completely different country is a huge step towards that. It’s so valuable to me to work in an environment that is dedicated to helping others, and also keeps a positive attitude towards the world they’re doing despite the topic being one that’s taboo and depressing. 

Having an internship here in the Czech Republic (let alone studying abroad) was never something that was on my radar. More opportunities have found their way to me in the last couple of years and I do feel blessed. Doing an internship hasn’t negatively affected my ability to have free time to explore or study, and it has allowed me to be immersed in the local community more than I would by just going to school. I hope that over the remaining weeks, I get to learn more from Dům Pro Julii, and in the end feel like I have a strong connection to the work I did.